A Glimpse Into My Life ♥

2012-02-01T20:08:00.000+08:00

It's already the first day of February in year 2012. Chinese New Year had already been 10 days. Note how time flies? Yes, very fast. Have you got your new year resolutions all set? Well, if you haven't, you'd better set it now, and start working for it. Cause, time waits for no man, and I'm pretty sure you wouldn't like having regrets on things you didn't do better or people you didn't appreciate earlier. Set, aim and head to your goals straight. There might be a little hesitation or lack of optimism at first, but I'm sure with a little determination, you'd have a whole new world out there. As for me, my near year resolution.. well, let's keep it a secret shall we? :)

How am I these days?

Well, I wouldn't say that I've been REAAAALLY good, since nothing is perfect. Although things might be a little harsh to me these few weeks (not to say all), I'm pretty sure I will get over them soon. Everyday's a brand new day. Everyday's another new chance for me to live my life to the fullest. Leave yesterday's sorrow behind, and anticipate for a whole new mystery tomorrow. And I'm sure, you'd experience the unexpected, and have a great smile for the slightest matter. Self satisfaction is a virtue. :)

Honestly, I just did a little tearing before I typed this post. Someone just told me something that hurts me badly. But, it was 20 minutes ago. 'Ago' indirectly means it's the past. So why still dwell in the past, when I can have 20 minutes of laughter ahead? OPTIMISM.

Alright, time to stop blogging.

I've an exam to sit in 9 days time, and I'm still not done revising! :(

Anyways, hoping this blogpost will inspired some of you readers who are having a bad day perhaps.

Again, optimism is the way of living your life to the fullest and it leads to happiness and self satisfaction.

It's a virtue. :)

Till then!

2012-01-01T19:07:00.001+08:00

2011's a year full of bittersweet memories to me, which I think the bitter ones outbalanced the sweet memories.

2011's been a tough year for me, probably the hardest year.

I've learnt, and I've experienced. I fell, and I stood back up. I've cried and I've smiled.

Well, all I can say is that it's been a heck of a year and the past experiences makes you into who you are today.

A new hair color for a fresh start. :)

And now it's a new year with a new beginning to start, new chances to take opportunity of, new hopes to laid with and new dreams to pursue.

We should not linger around the past, but smile for the future.

A new year is actually time for reflection and resolution.

A new year is actually a chance for us to get things right, cause it's telling us that we've wasted our time since it's already a new year to begin with.

So let's cheers to a new year and welcome 2012 with an embrace. ♥

And let's create more good memories, with the people you love. (:

2011-12-30T11:25:00.000+08:00

I'm really sorry for leaving my blog untouched.

It's just that sometimes, I'm too lazy to update my daily life.

Maybe, the habit of blogging has slowly been diminished from my life.

Today, this morning, the urge of blogging came back.

Things been.. probably moderate these days, there're ups and downs of course.

Been travelling a lot, Singapore on the 2nd week of December, then right after Sg, went to Italy with the family.

And lastly, Christmas Eve at Singapore again.

If you're interested in the photos I've taken throughout all those trips, please kindly check my facebook.

Again, I'm lazy to upload those overdue photos here on my blog. Bare with me! :3

There's one day that I went out with my friends, and I kinda talked a lot about life's theories and expectations.

Talking about being optimistic towards everything in life, including the drawbacks.

Friends mentioned that this is so not Candy Low. Well, probably I've finally opened my mind and thought that optimism is the optimum way of living your own life.

I've been trying so hard to be an optimistic person after whatever is happening throughout the whole 19 years of my life, and I will never stop trying.

2011's been a tough year for me, a really tough one. This year is full of tears and depression.

And I really wanted 2011 to end so badly. But, nevertheless, I've created good memories too in my life photo album.

[I actually typed something in here, but I backspaced it.. thinking I shouldn't reveal anything private in my blog since it's a public blog. Well, I guess I should keep it to myself again.]

And now 2011 has to end with me being afraid having to lose one important friendship.. sigh. :(

A random picture of me in 2011.

Goodbye for now.

2011-11-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

Sigh.. :(

2011-11-16T23:25:00.001+08:00

Exam's finally over. And there goes my Year One in Uni.

Well, I couldn't say that I did really well in this semester, cause I know how I did.

Kinda regret for slacking so much. If my results ain't convincing, I can only blame myself. :(

I'm so gonna work harder next semester especially when I officially study for my major subjects, I PROMISE!!

Bar B Q plaza after our final paper :)

Yinyee & Kahhei :)

Feels good for not studying everytime before I go to bed! :)

3 MONTHS HOLIDAYS , HERE I COME! :D

But I'm so gonna fattmou until December. Anyone, date me pls? :(

Or probably I should date with my dramas! Been downloading whole lot of series and movies these few weeks. HEHEHEE :D

2011-11-13T21:33:00.003+08:00

"The secret of moving on is not to cut all your connections with each other. The best way to move on is to treat each other as FRIEND."

Till now, no matter how much I tried to put an effort, by the end of the day, it is all in vain.
Well, alright. :) I'm fine with it, and I'll prove myself that I'd definitely let it through, just like how you did. :)

剩下的只会是当初认识你的友情

Either way, thanks for the good memories. :)

2011-11-12T19:40:00.004+08:00

那些年，我们一起追的女孩

You Are The Apple Of My Eye

A Giddens Ko film (九把刀)

Director's Statement (九把刀)

與青春訣別的關鍵時刻，最容易創作出關於青春最棒的作品。

我的青春很快樂很瘋狂，卻也有很多遺憾，這些遺憾是青春美好的副作用，帶著我回到十七歲那年的青春盛夏，看看我們這一群臭小鬼，當年是如何擠破頭追求那可愛的女孩，沈佳宜。

大家都說我很幼稚，但幸好我比大家想像的都還要幼稚。

我找了一群很好的製作夥伴，熱力十足的年輕演員，浩浩蕩蕩回到故事發生的地方，我的故鄉彰化，我的母校精誠中學，我穿過的制服，重現十五年前的時代氣氛。

電影，會很好看。

At that pivotal moment of saying farewell to your adolescence, you are most likely to create the most ravishing work about youth.

My adolescent days were joyful and crazy, but also marked with regrets. All those regrets became the wonderful side effects of adolescence, leading me back to the hot summer when I was 17. Look at us! A bunch of brats! See how we desperately went after the cutest girl in the world, Shen Chia-Yi.

People say I am childish. Fortunately, I am even more childish than any one could imagine.

I put together an excellent production team and a group of dynamic young actors. We went back to my hometown Changhua and back to my high school. They put on the uniform I used to wear and we managed to recreate the vibes and atmosphere of these good old days.

That would make an incredible movie.

Synopsis

青春是一場大雨。即使感冒了，還盼望回頭再淋它一次。

柯騰的一群好友，為了共同喜歡的沈佳宜，不約而同從精誠中學國中部直升到高中部，繼續未完的戀愛戰鬥。

某天柯騰因過度惡作劇被導師處罰，坐到好學生沈佳宜前面，由她代為監視。起先兩人彼此抗拒，但柯騰漸漸喜歡上逼他用功讀書的沈佳宜，沈佳宜也受到柯騰帶來的迥異價值觀深深地衝擊，柯騰展開了追求，沈佳宜則猶豫不決。

高中畢業後，原本快要在一起的柯騰與沈佳宜，卻因為柯騰舉辦的自由格鬥賽大吵一架，遺憾未能成為戀人。

看著一起追過多年的女孩步入禮堂，成了別人的新娘子，每個男孩都得到了各自的成長，也繼續追尋各自的幸福。

Adolescence is like a heavy rain. Even though you catch a cold from it, you still look forward to experiencing it once again.

Ko-Teng has several close friends who had a crush on Shen Chia-Yi. Those friends of Ko's thus moved in unison from Ching Cheng’s junior high school straight into the senior high school division in pursuit of her.

Naughty in nature, Ko was ordered by their homeroom teacher to sit in front of honor student Shen for her to keep close tabs on him. The two hadn't hit it off at first but Ko gradually fell for Shen, who was always pressuring him to study hard. On the other hand, Shen became impressed by the contrasting values Ko represented. Ko started pursuing Shen but Shen remained hesitant.

After graduation from senior high, Ko and Shen almost became a couple but the deal was spoilt by a dukeout competition organized by Ko.

Growing up together to witness their beloved Shen walking down the aisle to become someone else’s wife, these boys have learned their coming-of-age lessons and continue to pursue each’s happiness.

I heard a lot of recommendations of this movie from friends and news.

I was really looking forward to this movie when it was released in Taiwan earlier, and I finally got to watch it last night.

To my amaze, it is really an awesome movie, a movie filled with love.

A movie where it would bring you back to your high school times;

or probably the first time you deeply fall in love.

Watched this movie with excitement, and came out of the cinema with mixed feelings - amazed how the storyline flow smoothly with all those happy, loving scenes portrayed by both awesome actors contrasted with a sad ending.

I admired how the director, which is also the scriptwriter of this movie and love story portrayed his-so-called-childishness and love into this movie reminiscing about himself 15 years ago back in his high school time with his first love.

That proves how precious first love is, perhaps.

Having to lose his youth and first love just because of a mere wrong decision, seeing his loved one walked down the aisle with her bridegroom whom wasn't himself..

Writing his story into a novel and filming it into a movie with one of the highest ratings wanting to let the real 沈佳怡 to know how he felt; this story of his will forever be remembered.

"You will forever be the apple of my eye."

柯振东 as 柯惊腾

A 20-years-old new actor, and he's actually pretty hot. :P

陈妍希 as 沈佳怡

A 28-year-old actress whom doesn't look like her age at all. At first I thought she was only at her early twenties!

She's sooooo incredibly pretty :) 好正!

Loving this picture :P

毕业了!

我想成为一个很厉害的人因为有了我让这个世界有一点点的不一样【而我的世界就是你的心】

不要告诉我答案，请让我，继续喜欢你

幼稚，就是幼稚才会喜欢你那么久

This is the part where he should have done. :'( not walking away..

if not, the ending wouldn't have to be that way.

也许在另外一个平行时空里我们是在一起的..

看着他最心爱的人能够找到自己的幸福他也微笑了..

So pretty :)

This was supposed to be their ending! :(

This movie inspired me a lot.

No doubt, alike others, I've been thinking a lot back in times throughout the whole movie.

And I came to a conclusion that..

有些事有些人一旦错过了就无法回到那些年的时光了

Please appreciate those around you. And never let them go if you really loved them. :')

"那些年错过的大雨那些年错的爱情好想告诉你告诉你我没有忘记" - 那些年

2011-10-29T23:50:00.000+08:00

I've the mood to blog today.
So many words in my mind, and I've the mood to spill it all out here (:

I guess I shall express my thoughts in Chinese (:

从那很顽皮很爱玩一直无理取闹不懂事的小孩
一步一步慢慢地长大
经历了许多喜怒哀乐开心与不开心的事
跌倒了又爬起来跌跌撞撞的
没错，有时候真的是很难熬过很想放弃不轻易放下心中的包袱
有时候很寂寞很孤独很无助
但她都已经走到这一步了
这些经验对她来说是一种考验一个成长的过程
时间久了思想开始不同了人都跟着变了

这几天，脑海了浮现了很多画面很多回忆

固执是因为放不下执着是因为不想失去

也看通了许多开始学会不要太在意了

'O8

我不想像以前那样了

'11

因为我想重新开始 (:

When life throws you lemon, catch those lemons and make lemonade!

& I will stay cool. (:

人就是要知足才会快乐 :)

2011-10-27T20:23:00.000+08:00

Currently in the midst of an exam period.

Things been pretty hectic - exams, study, revision, stress, hardcore.

Apart from that, many things had happened in my life these days.

I'm not sure if it brings any benefit to me, but I'm pretty sure I've been tearing a lot.

Since then,

I started have negative thoughts again.

I've been trying so hard to cover those with optimism thoughts, yet in vain.

When I ever needed someone..anyone, I ended up being helpless and alone,

and I couldn't help tearing everytime that feeling struck me.

All I want is a bit of your time.

All I want is a bit of your concern.

All I want is a bit of your love.

i'm sorry to say but I can't really sense it.

& out of the sudden, I feel like I'm the only one left in my own tiny world;

it's as if everyone left without saying goodbye.

Or perhaps, my existence doesn't even matter to anybody at the first place, yeah.

Yes, I'm not happy now.

So?

2011-10-19T22:47:00.000+08:00

Have been ditching my blog lately due to my finals which is in two weeks time.

And I haven't been really preparing myself.

Now I'm trying to chase back time.. so, I believe that this blog will be temporarily closed until further notice.

You guys can still catch me on twitter (: @candylovexx

Peace out! (:

Till then!

2011-10-08T00:16:00.001+08:00

youaremymissingpuzzlepiece.

I didn't realize..after so long..

it's still there; never left me, never stop haunting me.

I thought I've been coping well all this while, yet..

false hopes, unanswered questions marks, bittersweet memories.
where do I actually stand?

"我在等一个人在等我的永恒告诉我爱不单行别害怕"

back to strangers again.

2011-10-03T16:57:00.000+08:00

我依然愛你這是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜時時刻刻的幸福
你每個呼吸每個動作每個表情
到最後一定會 依然愛你

2011-09-29T19:07:00.001+08:00

Life's been hectic these days.

It's mid semester break, and it's supposed to be a period for me to catch up on studies and assignments.

But I haven't been concentrating these few days, and I feel like banging my head on the wall. :(

Exams' around the corner yet I'm not up to that standard. Seriously, someone motivate me. =\

I'm not in the mood of blogging these few weeks.

Probably because I'm busy, and LAZY, but... I'd like to stay mysterious, rather a little.

Or maybe... I don't know, I just feel weird. HEHEHE, oh well!

OH BY THE WAY!

I'm currently watching this drama; "Return of the Condor Heroes" - 神雕侠侣 2006.

A 刘亦菲 and 黄少明 production.

Years back, I've read the novel of this wuxia + romance legend and I loved it.

I loved the story to bits.

Days back, I came by this website which has a download link of this whole drama, and gave me the urge to watch it.

There are actually many versions of this martial arts story, but probably because those versions are really old, I didn't like it.

And now this version... 刘亦菲 is so pretty. She's like what? 17/18 years old when this drama was produced, yet she can act so perfectly, portrayed herself as an innocent, goddess-like lady - 小龙女.

Oh as you guys don't know, 刘亦菲 is the leading actress of 恋爱通告 (leading actor is LeeHom). :)

She's like an angel! :)

Get what I mean? :)

过儿& 姑姑 :)

To me, their love story is the best, BEST.

I'm currently at episode 8, ahhhh someone stop me. I NEED TO STUDY!! T__T

2011-09-14T23:11:00.001+08:00

Sorry, was lazy to update my blog these few days. Were quite busy with Uni stuff.

Pictures during Mid-Autumn Festival, long over due pictures.

9th September Mooncake festival celebration @ Kar Lyn's new house - Jalan Ipoh.

Her cute dog, JESSICA. :D

SUPER ADORABLE!!

Everyone loves playing with her. :)

May, Lisa and Huey

Tanglung :)

Jelly mooncake that I bought for them :)

2011-09-12T23:12:00.000+08:00

And so the moon is up there at its roundest and brightest.
Chinese tradition thing of playing with brightly-lit lanterns and candles,
sipping tea and eating mooncake,
call me old-fashioned, but I like the way it is celebrated.

Sitting down at the garden or balcony, with friends&family surrounded;
chit-chatting and laughing all the way,
looking up at the beautiful moon with a piece of mooncake on your hand,
turning your head towards the ones sitting beside you & whispering to yourself "howblessedIam"
REUNION.
Best thing you've ever had. :')

Shall post pictures some other day.

Hmm, maybe one will do.

中秋节快乐！(:

2011-09-11T16:16:00.002+08:00

Heard today's the 10th year anniversary of the Taiwan pop singer group - S.H.E
From strangers, to friends, to best friends, to best best friends, to best best best friends until the count of the 3650th day.
It's really blessed having each other's back everytime when gossips and rumors overrun them.
It's really awesome having to compose and sing their very own friendship songs.

S.H.E's songs accompanied my childhood journey till now.
And clearly, they are everyone's role model of friendship, including mine. :)

Happy 10th Birthday, S.H.E! :)
May your friendship lasts for eternity! :)

朋友姐妹
都已不够来形容
我们的默契骄傲扶持与包容
老婆老婆
我们一起打勾勾
请记得约定的旅程到永久

:)

2011-09-08T23:37:00.026+08:00

Of all days, Tuesdays and Wednesdays are the days where my time is more flexible than my other days.

I've a 5 hours break in between classes on Tuesdays and I only have one class on Wednesdays.

So, on Tuesday, initially, Evelyn and Ayaka asked me out for breakfast at Levain.

Then when Ayaka said that she's bringing her friend, and Evelyn's bringing Nikkie, so...

I brought my uni friends along. :)

Although at first the situation's a lil awkward, cause Evelyn doesn't really know my Uni friends.

But after a while, we already created a scene there, an funny awkward embarrassing scene. XD

All thanks to Germaine Leong Xiao Xuan. c(:

Monashians :)

Me and the couple :)

HAHAHAHAH, know what I mean? :P

Funny friend I have there. :)

Ayaka :)

And of course, Evelyn. :)

Later at night, went to One U to meet the gang @ Chillis.

It's sort of a gathering since we haven't been seeing each other for so long plus a few of them are leaving to UK soon.

Jean - 13th Sept

Ryan - 17th Sept

Han - 20th Sept

Yeap, the gang is getting smaller already. :(

Ughh, I should not have come back to KL at the first place eh? HAHAHAHA. I kid.

Jean :)

Vk working @ Mac City.

Waited for him until 10ish and all of us crashed Jean's place.

Then the rest came. Although it was only for a short time, cause most of us need to go home early, it was worth it just to see each other. :))

& the girls.

The couple. :)

2011-09-05T13:55:00.000+08:00

Weekends were packed with random outings.

On Saturday, finally get to see my bff after a long time cause she was busy with her trips.

Had a really nice and long catch-up with her, not to mention that the last time I saw her was more than a week ago.

Loving the fact that we are able to have so much to talk everytime we see each other. :)

Went all the way to Mid Valley cause I was craving for Gongcha :)

Had our dinner there at Fong Lye Taiwan Restaurant.

After that, since it was still early, we went to Caffeinees to yumcha. :)

I think it was Evelyn's first time at Caffeinees, heh.

After that went to Castle for my second round with the gang.

Something bad happened after that which made me really angry. -.-

But oh well, don't wanna talk about it.

The next day, which is Sunday, Evelyn randomly asked me out to Caffeinees (again -.-) to yumcha.

This time it's with Ayaka, cause that woman is depressed, lol.

And they ordered a bucket of Carlsberg while waiting for my arrival LOL.

My bff (:

Ayaka and Evelyn. They are collegemates FYI ;)

Ending the post with this photo. :D

2011-09-02T23:12:00.000+08:00

Nice having you here with us for 3 weeks. ;)

Hoping this bond wouldn't end when reality starts to kick in your mind.

Forever your Candy jiejie :):):)

2011-08-30T23:47:00.002+08:00

Encouraging words taken from tumblr from the haopengyou. Thanks so much. (:

"You must be really tired, aren't you?"

Yeah I am, but there's nothing else I could do. Nothing.

I'm just hoping for the best. I'm just hoping I could start all over again.
Keep hanging there Candy, stay strong!

2011-08-26T22:51:00.000+08:00

Seriously, think twice before you say anything bad. You wouldn't know if someone's hurt.

I didn't know that I was like that to you.

I didn't know that I'm the stupidest among all.

Now I know. Yes, those words may accidentally slipped from your mouth.

But bear in mind, don't underestimate me. I don't like it.

Haven't been tearing for so long, finally have the chance to wash my eye a little.

2011-08-25T20:13:00.000+08:00

In a blink of eye, two months has passed. And it's time for you to go back to the place of Americans.

It's nice having you here with me, especially when your place is just around the corner.

It's nice having to see you at least once a week ever since you're back.

It's nice having you to checked my previous exam result for me.

It's nice having your parents treating me as your other daughter. :)

And most of all, it's nice having you here when I can talk to you as much as I can, anytime I want. :)

Hoping God would bless you in your studies to get into the University you aimed for.

And of course, your health and happiness. :)

Take good care of yourself Samantha Seah Cheok Wei, and please come back in one piece the next time I see you, which is one year later.

We must skype more this time! Love you miuuuuukkk, forever & always be my float (:

2011-08-19T23:14:00.002+08:00

So, Thursday was the day that I need to hand in my Business Stats assignment.

Had been working on it overnight with the help of Angela, HweeHwee and Germaine. :)

Managed to hand in on time, but I was super tired the whole day.

Couldn't hold it longer after Money&Cap lecture, so I decided to go home and sleep when I have classes till 6 that day. -__- Well, it was the first time I skipped 3 classes in a row. LOL. And mom's okay with it. :O

Btw, that night, Colin randomly asked Sam, Xying and I out for a drink and they decided to go Caffeinees which I claimed the shisha there is good. Germaine wants to give shisha a try. Tsk tsk, bad girl. :D

The night was awesome not until when I got drunk, and I was so embarrassed. -.-

And I blame it all to Colin. -.- Ish, stupid bottoms up. BLEHHHH.

Was supposed to meet up with Lisa and Seet for a movie session.

But I was too drunk that I can't even drive. So they came looking for me in Caffeinees.

Luckily I have them to fetch me home. :) Thank you so much!

Oh and thank you Ger for the awesome toilet moments. Shall never forget it. :)

Pictures :)

The two lovebirds - Germaine & Colin

Tried to act as the bitchy type while shishaing , but obviously she failed miserably! XD

Sam & Xy :)

She sucks so bad at shisha-ing, and at the same time, so cute! Awwwhh :D

Meet my pengyou + hao :D

Ger & I :)

This pic is absolutely stunning! PROFILE PIC YO!

Ger, Colin & Sam :D

smooooooooches :)

Haven't been drinking like this for a really long time.

Maybe I should reconstruct my sentence. I've been drinking quite a number of times these weeks, but I've never been this drunk for a long time.

Well, thanks to the empty stomach and Colin! RAWR.

Oh well, this proves that my alcohol tolerance is STILL REALLY BAD. Need more training. Tsk tsk. :)

Awesome night spent with the uni friends and Sam :)

Thank you once again Lisa & Seet! Appreciate it much!

2011-08-19T21:59:00.000+08:00

On Tuesday, a few of us sent Wilson off at the airport to Michigan, US.

It was around 7ish when I just got back home from class not long ago, yet I drove all the way to KLIA just for him.

I'm such an awesome friend I know :)

But sending friends off at the airport isn't my thing, cause I seriously don't like the scene of saying goodbyes.

It's like we're not gonna see each other again. =\

Well, we shall think it in a positive perspective, at least our thoughts and mood will change better. :)

Wilson's whole family ;)

Wilson and the red Converse shoes that I bought for him :)

He looked good in it, no? :D

I like this :)

The amount of polaroids we took :)

I like this picture of him and his sis :)

HUUUUUGSSS :(

I really hate the feeling of saying goodbye. Especially to someone who's close to you.

And you know they wouldn't be there for you physically whenever you needed them like how you used to rely on them previously.

You're leaving to chase your future and dreams. And I'm so happy for you that you've the chance to study abroad and have a new start of life there.

Study hard and make your family and us proud with a graduate certificate :)

Take care and all the best. I know distance wouldn't separate our friendship.

Will miss you dearly buddy. :')

So long!

I found it weird without having to see your text anymore. =\

2011-08-17T18:00:00.000+08:00

A few of us gathered at Wilson's place on Saturday, 13th August to have a last farewell outing with him.

We played a lil sports at the nearby club, Kelab Taman Putra I think.
And had a bak kut teh session with them at Hing Kee Bak Kut Teh @ Kepong.
Then we went back to his place and had a drinking + truth&dare session.

Honestly, it's the first time we had a really realistic confession between us that night.
I think it's because of the alcohol that we consumed, they had their dark secrets revealed. :O
Same rule, the conversation will be kept between us only. :)

Pictures below, enjoy!

Wilson's dad mixed this Green Label whisky with Coke for us to drink. LOL.

Got dared. XD

& Henry too. XD

At around 11-ish, most of us got drunk already.
We went to Kepong Food court to chill out for a while before heading home and be sober while driving.
And we had the last spiciest sausage challenge again. :)

And Henry's too tired. LOL.Attention to Ziyang's face. XD

An awesome gathering that I'd definitely miss big time.

2011-08-14T23:59:00.003+08:00

"倔强的我以为能改变你"

It's the past, and I had enough.
I do have an option; to stay in the past or move on with my new life.
Get over it.

2011-08-11T22:26:00.001+08:00

These days have been kinda stressful.

Two days ago, I only got to know that I've a Money&Capital online test to be done by Friday.

And the tested areas are the first 3 chapters. I was kinda nervous cause I didn't know about it all along.

And I don't know anything about this subject. It's something new to me.

Yesterday, the BFF and I had a study date together.

It had been years since both of us sat down and studied together, I think the last time was during high school.

Feeling's awesome!

Plus, I haven't been seeing her for quite some time; approximately 2 weeks I think. That woman is going to sit for her exam next week, so she's pretending to be a book worm these few weeks. :P

Went to Starbucks, Kepong Jusco for our study date.

Sat there for 5 freaking hours with our books accompanied with Starbucks chocolate.

My Signature hot chocolate, & her Chocolate cream chip.

Pictures stolen from her blog. She was busy taking pictures while I was CONCENTRATING!

Hahahah :)

The green tea flavoured kit kat that I gave her to try and she liked it! :)

She's acting 'serious' XD

& I was being so stress until I knock my head on the table XD

It's quite productive for me although I couldn't finish studying.

Except the fact that my butt hurts a lot because of the super hard chairs. >:(

We went for a movie after studying to give our brains a time out. :)

Watched 人约离婚后 (Love is the Only Answer) !

It's a pretty good movie, with all the funny sex humor and vulgar words.

It would be so much nicer if Malaysia didn't censor 'some' scenes -__-

I don't get it why they censor those kissing or maybe 'more than kissing' scenes when THEY ONLY ALLOW 18 YEARS AND ABOVE TO WATCH THIS MOVIE. Come on, use your brain! -__-

Disappointed much! Shall download the original move just for those cut-off scenes! Ahem. :P

Then today, Germaine and friends kept asking me to do the Money&Cap online test together.

I wanted to do it on Friday right before the due time cause I haven't finish reading, but they 'threatened' me that the server might break down anytime, and warned me not to do last-minutely.

So I gave in and did with them.

And thank God I made the right decision. The test indeed was hard! :O

Luckily they helped me with it, or else I might not be able to pass the test. I'm darn serious.

Now this story teaches me to STUDY HARDER FOR MONEY&CAPITAL CAUSE IT'S GOING TO BE MY NEW NIGHTMARE FOR THIS SEM. :(

A little bit of camwhoring before Moral class today :)

Speaking about Moral, today, my friends in Moral class said that I don't look like a good girl! HMPH.

Appearance can deceive yo! But my first impression gone liao. :(

我很乖的咯! Ish ish. :(

"你看起来不会很坏，不过不会很乖，很像很爱玩酱!" Hahaha I admit I like to play lor.

But I will get really serious when it comes to studies. I assure you that!

Someone said I look good in specs WHEEEE :D

Shall start concentrating on studies now.

It's already the end of Week 3. Time flies like how fast I peed. LOL. What a weird metaphor -__-

2011-08-07T18:38:00.000+08:00

There was this time, when I thought my was life only about the same old kind of thing; only about undergoing the same kind of routine daily; not knowing what do I really yearned for.

When I thought I was the only one, being left there aimlessly and feeling absurdly helpless..

And I had this really great desire to reverse time, wanted to go back to where I was supposed to be.

Now, I was given a second chance.

Yet I reminiscent the life I used to have before. Not to say that I regret making the second decision.

It's just.. sometimes, we portray a really complicated kind of struggle in our minds eh?

But the truth is, I believe this is the right decision for me no matter what the sacrifices are.

The moment I've made the choice, I tried my best to stick with it and not move a little.

Because I know, it's for the better. ;)

History is rewritten, feelings start to fade away, but memories continue to stay.

All I can say is.. 真可惜.

If only I could make the best out of both sides.. things would be perfect.

But nothing is perfect in this world. All we can do is to live beyond our imperfections to get a taste of how life is like without being perfect. I reckon, it wouldn't be that bad after all. :)

Keep up that smile and no one's bringing you down, even yourself. ;)

2011-08-07T13:33:00.000+08:00

So sorry for not updating my blog these days.

Had a pretty busy life. Not with studies, haven't been studying at all I admit.

Not to say that I have a busy life here, it's just that sometimes I'm kinda lazy to update I don't even know why. Lack of pictures probably? Haven't been bringing out my camera lately. Oh well.

It's only the second week of Sem 2, and it seemed that I've lots to catch up.

I admit that I really need to discipline myself, balance up my studies and 'life' especially when I'm back here in KL.

I will. Trust me that I will study hard here too.

Did I mention that I have an extra subject compared to an average Monash student?

Yeap, the extra subject is Moral Studies! It's compulsory for all Malaysia students. I did my foundation studies in Melbourne that's why I skipped it before. Not a chance for me to skip it again.

I've an additional of 3 hours of studies per week, which sums up to 16 hours per week. -__-

The rule is that I have to pass the subject with an attendance of 80% in order to freaking graduate.

Oh not to mention that I've yet to take Malaysian Studies also next sem. Ahh, torturing Malaysian subjects. :(

And I've been a good kid, didn't skip any class on the 2nd week.

Hope I will be consistent throughout the whole sem HEHEHEE. :D

DrDreBeats added into my collection :)

And meet Mr. Paul :)

Today is a Sunday. I shall stay at home and study.

:) Peace!

"Don't fall back, but it's okay if you do, cause I will be there catching you" :)

2011-07-31T23:55:00.001+08:00

There's this deep connection between truth and reality and it makes us hard for us to adapt.

In some psychological sense, both are needed to accept, not to avoid.

Avoiding eventually makes you worse off. The more you avoid, the more it haunts you.

Accept to overcome it, and consistently tell yourself this won't pull you down nor tear you apart.

To me, I've lots of reality that I need to face despite how much I don't want to.

But I'm trying, struggling, trying again, pushing and it definitely is challenging.

Because I know it's for the better, improving your EQ and also IQ.

Let your guards down and probably, you'd see things in a better perspective. I shall. :)

2011-07-28T23:26:00.054+08:00

So, last Sunday the SSU gang planned to have a one day trip to the historical place of Malaysia.

8 of us, and 2 cars.

As usual, it's a random decision, plus all we wanted is to have a road trip to somewhere besides KL.

Malacca isn't that far, it's approximately around 2 hours drive.

Okay I shall cut the crap and let pictures do the talking. Cause I'm so lazy to type. Hahaha.

Btw, most pictures are uploaded in facebook, so check it out :)

Quote Seet : The most awesome picture! :D

Planned to have our breakfast here, and... LOOK AT THE QUEUE.

Despite the queue and the hot blazing sun, we still lined up. Since we are in Malacca already, might as well try their famous delicacies right.

While lining up. Red all the way yo! :)

The chicken ball rice :D

Seet ordered another additional 50 'balls' and it made us all bloated. Very much bloated.

Our tummies don't even have space for asam laksa and satay celup which we planned to eat cause we were too fuuuull. LOL.

Walked around Jonker Street.

Some stairs.

Some pose! LOL.

Some historical plate.

Some historical building LOL.

We couldn't stand the heat and the warmth from the super hot fierce sun so badly.

Then we decided to chill out at some comfortable place, so we chose Dataran Pahlawan, one of Malacca shopping center.

After chilling and walking around the whole shopping center, we got bored.

And after a few discussions, we decided to head to the beach.

The main point is that none of us know the route to the beach. All we did was to look at signboards and google map. Random sia.

Then, we found one 'fake' beach - I forgotten the Pulau name lol.

It's actually not land. Authorities filled the sea with lots of sand and debris to form this fake beach lol.

We weren't really happy about it, cause we couldn't play with the seawater as it was blocked, so we changed location.

On our way out, my car literally sank into the sand. HAHAHAH.

And we have to push the car. NICE EXPERIENCE YO! Hahahahaha!

Then we found another beach.

Not that perfect, cause the seawater and sand is kinda dirty.

Oh well, Malacca beaches are like that I assume?

Then off we head back.

Had dinner at 芙蓉烧包城.

It's a thumbs up recommendations yo! Fast, finger-licking and cheap food!

We ate every single bit of it cause we were really hungry.

We hadn't had anything after since we had the chicken ball rice that morning.

We ordered crab, fish, chicken etcetcetc for 8pax and the bill summed up to only 200bucks.

Damn awesome (:

Oh it's along the KL-Seremban highway, it's very easy to be spotted.

Good day spent with them :)

2011-07-25T23:11:00.002+08:00

So.. today is my first day of Semester 2 in Monash University, Sunway campus.

FYI, my timetable sucks so bad that I have to wake up really early everyday except Friday to get my ass in Uni.

Friday's exceptional, because to me, Friday can never be a school day. :)

Luckily I've rearranged some of my tutorial classes so it wouldn't look as bad as it was before, but.. it still sucks.

While driving to Uni, I've lots of thoughts in my mind. Like really alot.

Would I regret making this decision again? A 360degrees turn in my whole entire life that changes everything that is yet to be empowered by myself in the future.

I was supposed to be an undergraduate in Melbourne yet I'm back here.

History is rewritten and the path in front of me changes to another chapter in my storybooklife.

It may be a good or a bad one, a pro or con, a positive or negative outcome, but I've made my choice.

All I can do now is to.. make the best out of everything, and walk towards the path of my life without turning back anymore.

After attending the first lecture of the day which is Introduction to Management, I was much more optimistic about my decision.

I shall let down my guard and embrace this new study environment with an open heart. :)

Oh and.. it seems that my Melbourne friends are starting to ask me about my whereabouts.

I know you guys need an explanation from me, but I do wish you can believe me and have faith in my decision.

It's for the better. Probably you might think that losing a golden opportunity to study overseas is really not worth it, but who knows? Honestly, you don't stand for me. My life is in my own hands and I have the utmost decision. I might be stupid and yes of course you can judge me, but frankly speaking, if you understand my situation; standing inside my shoes, you'd do the same thing too.

I don't really like revealing the reasons here. If there's a need for you to know, just ask me privately. :)

I'm sorry if I've disappointed some of you, but this is my fated path.

I know, this changes everything, but I really hope I can walk till the end. Be with me please? :)

自己选着的路遇到什么困难都好也要走到最后把它完成。

2011-07-19T23:51:00.002+08:00

是时候画上一个完完整整的句点.

继续走下人生每一个角落, 希望能等到雨过天晴的彩虹 (:

Goodbye (:

2011-07-18T23:55:00.075+08:00

Honestly, some decisions are hard to make eh?

Especially those which would affect your whole life, and marks a change of history in your future.

To those who haven't heard the news yet, I'm back for good.

I repeat, I'm back in Malaysia for GOOD.

Shocked huh? No doubt, I've been thinking a lot, thinking about the pros and cons about me staying back here in KL and everything that is corresponded with the decision. The moment I've made up my mind, surprisingly I was relieved.

First of all, I'd like to say sorry to my Melbourne friends for the unexpected news from me.

But I have my own reasons. For which if you believe in me, you wouldn't judge me.

Some of you might think that I'm throwing the opportunity of studying overseas down the drain.

But hey, I've been exposed to the Westernized education for 18 months, and its not a short period to me.

Some of you might think that I would regret sooner or later. Frankly, I too am scared.

But sometimes, we wouldn't know the outcome if we are too afraid to take the risk, eh?

I shall again emphasize, I've my own reasons.

And if you're my friends, I hope you wouldn't judge me for being this reckless towards my future.

I know what am I doing and I know for good.

Please be supportive, cause it's what I need now.

I admit, I do have some personal matters bothering me when I was in Melbourne, that's why I need some time and space back here.

Yes, I will go back to square one in Monash University, Sunway campus, as I have to adapt myself to the new surroundings again and make new friends etc etc, but I'm sure I will cope with it pretty well.

"Candy, you don't have to care about what others have to say to you, you should seek for your own happiness and determine your own future."

Samantha Seah

"Candy, you should stay, you should stay."

Evelyn Koon

To my Melbourne friends, if you have the chance to read this post,

I'm really sorry for not telling you guys in advance.

But whatever it is, I do hope that we would keep in touch. Although it's only one and a half year's friendship, it means a lot to me in somewhere far and unfamiliar. It's what fate bring us together and I don't wish to ruin this friendship.

Do take care of yourselves, and I'm pretty sure we will meet each other again. :)

Thank you so much Sam!

Your letter motivate me a lot, and I'm sure I will be able to get through this. :)

Cause I'm a SUPERGIRL ;)

I shall move on. A new life awaits.

2011-07-13T23:35:00.000+08:00

13th of July - Just an ordinary day to others, but not to me.

Well, it's because I was born on that day, on 1.30pm @ Tawakal Hospital. :)

I don't know who will be happy or proud because of my existence into this world, only God knows. :)

How did I spend my day?

It doesn't have to be special, I just need those people who cared, to be with me, not leaving me alone on my birthday.

It's what the sincerity and heart that matters, I don't have to receive lots of presents, a wish is already enough for me. :) Because to me, at least you remembered my birthday, and I'm already contented enough.

So, I would wanna thank those who wished me personally, via text messages, calls, facebook and twitter.

Every single wish is greatly appreciated. :)

Went for a dinner buffet @ Lemon Garden Cafe, Shangri-la Hotel.

It's a different one this time, cause I hoped to have a different type of dinner celebration.

And it turned out to be not so bad. :) Except the part that it is a five-star hotel thus our dress code must be semi-formal. LOL. You know I never like wearing heels!

They serve a variety of cuisine such as Malaysian, Japanese, Italian, Western and very fresh seafood. :)

And it's not bad, seriously. I'd give it a 9 out of 10 :)

I'm loving the pictures taken on that day! :) Enjoy!

With the besties on the way to the hotel :)

Aim on the heels! LOL.

The atmosphere

Lemon Garden Cafe :)

That's Evelyn! HAHAHAHAH!

The girls in the toilet :)

And all of the girls except Sammie! LOL. Loving the huge mirror! :)

And Vk in the girls toilet! LOL.

Very pretty stawberry and chocolate fondue :)

And they serve pretty desserts too :)

BFF and I :)

Sam & Kai.. and the spotlight. Hahahaha!

M gang girls :)

M gang boys :)

Mom & I

Dad & I :)

At Mei Ling & I :)

All the girls again :)

M gang :)

Koon sisters :)

smooches :)

Loving this pic! :)

That night was supposed to be a joint birthday celebration for us July babies of the gang.

11th July - Wen Han

13th July - Candy

14th July - Vk

17th July - Pei Jean

Yeap but my mom bought the cake with only my name on it. LOL.

Family :)

& the whole group picture. :)

So this was how I spent my birthday.

Just a dinner buffet together, a small, cozy, yet a happy one. :)

Thanks so much for the presence, guys!

As I said before, sincerity is all that matters. Thank you for being my personal support system, supporting me always!

Cause I believe and have faith in you guys. :)

Lots of love (:

2011-07-12T23:49:00.055+08:00

Woke up early in the morning to get some stuff settled.

But, I'm not gonna disclose it first since it's not confirmed yet. :)

Went to Sam's place after that to pick her up to WMS, our high school to see how our high school change.

We went there without telling anyone, and yes, Leong was shocked. :D

WMS has changed a lot; a number of new faces of teachers, a range of new menus for the canteen food and new painted walls, and new unfamiliar students who kept looking at us the moment we walked in the school.

The new food menu! They have ala carte too! LOL

Sammie :)

AZA!

Leong!

with Xinying :)

Ex addmaths tuition yo!

Hanged out for a while, and off we went back to Sam's place.

Didn't do much there because I wasn't feeling really good and I dozed off on her couch LOL. :)

Then at night, off to Solaris Dutamas to meet up with the bunch of SSU people.

Wasn't really good in the roads there, I lost my way.. And they had to wait for me for half an hour. Lol.

But they said I'm the main character so hehehhehe. :D

Went to Wau Penyu.

They said it was a good shisha place, well, it doesn't really matter to me cause shisha is never my thing (:

Seet :)

LOL!

Idk what we were doing, lol.

STREET WEAR HEHEHEHE

LOL?

BEN! HAHAHAHA

Then when it was around 11.45pm, some of them left the table one by one. LOL; 8 of us, left only 4 of us.

I pretended not to ask nor say anything, and I continued looking at my phone and iPod.

What's worst was that, Yap's gf tweeted something like "The surprise is processing blablabla" in twitter and I saw her tweet. -__- LOL EPIC PHAILED!

Then when I went out of the toilet, they appeared with a cake.

HAHAHAHAH the most epic surprise ever ever ever!

But whatever it is, it's the sincerity that matters heheheh :)

Posing for their phones' camera! XD

Making a wish :)

Finally a decent picture :)

Thank you guys! :)

Appreciate it much!

2011-07-09T23:48:00.009+08:00

RALLY?

BERSIH 2.0?

UMNO?

NAJIB?

I don't know and I don't care.

All I know is this rally thingy spoiled my weekend and I'm staying in on a Saturday! -__-

But whatever it is, I really hoped that those leaders leading Bersih 2.0 and their followers are able to change history.

Malaysia's government... can just die. -__-

Come to think of it, Malaysia will be a much better place to live in without its stupid government and political parties fighting for this fighting for that.

Who're the ones who will suffered in the end huh? RAKYAT MALAYSIA LA!!

Malaysia with this type of government and police, seriously..... speechless.

So sad but true.

2011-07-08T23:30:00.001+08:00

Day Three - 5th July

The cruise reached Ho Chi Minh city, Vietnam early morning.

But to my amaze......

the colour of the sea spoiled my mood.

Yes, it IS THAT BROWN!

I seriously wonder how the Vietnamese pollute the sea water -__-

& seriously, the number of motorcycles/motorbikes are way too huge!

They even called it the motor jam, where the road is full of motorcycles and there's no way but to be stuck in the traffic congestion I swear.

They even have Tutti Frutti there.

This is where we went. & I forgot what is it called LOL.

This is where we shop cheap stuffs.

& it's hot inside here.

No, I shall correct myself. Not only inside this building, it's effing hot in Vietnam.

Freaking worst than in Malaysia ohmygawd. -__-

Vietnam isn't a nice place to go too, no offence!

So sad but true.

Then went back to the cruise cause couldn't stand the heat after about 3 hours.

& I went for a basketball session. :)

Feels so good after a round of basketball cause it had been ages ever since I've touched that sport!

& it was once my favorite sport activity!

After dinner, we went to watch a show called something Superstar, I forgot -__-

This show is performed by the crew of StarCruiseVirgo.

And I can say, it's the best performance compared to the other show I've watched in the cruise.

Both of them are male.

Believe me?

There! LOL

MJ yo!

SHE'S BEAUTIFUL!! RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT hahahahha

End of day three.

Day Four - 6th July

Day four was so much more boring compared to the other days.

We did nothing in the whole cruise. To kill time, we don't even wanna wake up early.

Yes, we were that bored!!

I went to the Activity Centre to use their internet service.
& hell, they are like blood suckers. They charge SGD$0.23 per minute! And the connection sucks balls.
-___-

& I went for another round of basketball session.

And did a little cardio as well.

When the sky is getting dark, we then prepare for our gala dinner.

That night, we had two dinner. Yeap, TWO.

A Chinese cuisine and Japanese cuisine.

Didn't really snap much photos cause I was busy eating. OHGOODGRACIOUSTHEFATS!!

The super cute Lee Ka Sheng!

Yeap, he was named before the richest man in HongKong - Lee Ka Sheng

Japanese cuisine.

That pretty much ends day four.

Day Five - 7th July

Day five, is the day where the cruise arrived at Pulau Redang; the day we long await!

Why? Because Pulau Redang is under Malaysia's territory, which means...

NETWORK COVERAGE!

Finally we can use our phone after.. 4 days not touching my phone at all! :D

And we went to Redang resort. Some went for swimming, suntanning, some even went for snorkeling, what about us? Nah, just enjoy the sun. The hot scorching sun! I swear my skin was burning -__-

& of course, photos were taken. :)

To avoid the heat LOL

No doubt, despite the sun, Pulau Redang is definitely a beautiful place to take photos and enjoy with a bunch of friends. :)

No pictures on day six. Cause my camera battery is exhausted, and I lost my camera charger -__-

Well, this pretty summed up my cruise trip. :)

2011-07-05T17:02:00.069+08:00

When I was still a small innocent young kid (HEHEHE :D ), mom always brings us and the cousins for a cruise excursion.

I've experienced the Star Cruise Virgo a couple of times, and also, Pieces, Gemini and Aquarius.

I don't even know why I agreed with my mom that I would join her for the Star Cruise Virgo excursion this time. What was I thinking that time? LOL!

It was so boring to the max! For real.

Especially when my only companion is my cousin, which is really sad cause it's only both of us and the aunties.

Oh no!

Plus as I said earlier, we've been to the cruise a few times, and practically, everything is still the same.

The restaurants, the cabin, the pool, the activities, the food, everything. -__-

Oh well!

No doubt, I did relax myself. :)

Day One - 3rd July

Let the pictures do the talking then.

@ KLIA hitching the 12pm flight to Singapore.

FYI, the cruise is docked at Singapore port. :)

With the cousin, Tan Jia Ying!

HAHHAHAHAHA the uncle&aunty! XD

Btw, they're not Tan Jia Ying's parents k. :)

With the mom!

Nice portrait of the Star Cruise Virgo :)

My access card!

My cabin!

The pool for kids :)

The view from my cabin's balcony!

Such beautiful sunset view :)

Didn't really do much on the first day.

Just walked around the cruise and called it a day. :)

Day Two - 4th July

Day Two was bored. Cause we spent the whole day on the cruise.

Doing practically nothing. Just walked around the cruise and snapped photos.

Morning view!

View of the Parthenon Pool. :)

YAY

And we went to the arcade to play this to kill time. Yes. Bored!

Dinner @ Bella Vista, a Western restaurant.

The mom and grandma :)

Note the rabbit-shaped-towel! Hahahha so cute! XD

We spent our day two by catching a movie at the theater - Red Riding Hood, while the adults spent their day in the casino -__-

2011-07-02T23:02:00.005+08:00

JULY

The month full of expectations and changes for me this year.

I don't know how to explain, but I know there'd be something changing in my life throughout this month.

It's only the matter of a positive or a negative issue. It depends.

Watch me! Cause the next time you see me, you might be surprised! ;)

Had a new change of look yesterday with the brother.

A change of look on the 1st of July for a fresher move on.

He finally showed his teeth to the camera :)

I always thought that I was special. At least to you.

But the truth is.. I'm not as important anymore, not to you, not to those whom I cared, not to anyone.

Because of my oversensitiveness, I'm actually afraid.. really afraid. But.. I'm feeling absurdly helpless.

I will never have expectations anymore. Never. I never want myself to get hurt anymore.

Despite all the drawbacks, things will eventually get better if you believe. I believe. :)

To the breeze, and the deep blue ocean, along the horizon of another dimension;

hopefully, I would find a better change and a true self. Let fate decide. So long!

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2011-06-30T23:45:00.084+08:00

We planned to have a Japanese buffet dinner together at this place called Tao @ Sunway Giza.

Honestly, we had been planning since a month ago I think, and fortunately it went pretty well.

Before that, Valerie and I went for a little shopping in Pavilion.

She came back with a handful of goods while I came back with only one Superdry. Oh well. :)

I'm lazy to type so let the pictures do the talking!

Went to Levain to get macaroons.

To get to know it's really really sweeeeeeet. -___-

The rest came at around 6-ish.

With some of their partner....yeap. :)

The girls. Jean is missing whoops.

Posing with my-oh-so-doesn't-suit-me-sandals. This isn't my style huh. Yes I know. -__-

Here we are.

The couples table. *ahem*

The variety of sushi.

They serve really good grilled salmon! Double thumbs up!!

I found this picture of me funnehhhhh. XD

The amount of food we took. It's a buffet, definitely we must fully utilize the money paid. :)

Vk and his girl, Erica!

Valerie and Hayden.

The girls

The group photo for the day!

The bill summed up to RM1006. So it's approximately RM72 per person.

Quite pricey cause it doesn't really serve a whole lot of food like Jogoya, but the food served is pretty good.

Quality > Quantity !

After dinner, the whole lot doesn't wanna go back so early, so we went to Overtime to have our drinking session.

Valerie!

Erica!

Ma best guy friend, Wilson!

Henry and his girlfriend, Hydie!

Cardin!

Polaroids taken for the day!

2011-06-29T22:56:00.077+08:00

The moment I woke up, I saw messages from Evelyn in SMS, Whatsapp and Twitter.

She actually wanted to ask me out for breakfast. But I silent my phone, and even barred the vibration.

Yeah.... I usually do that when I sleep, I don't want anyone to disturb my beauty sleep except under special circumstances like having an outing the next morning. :)

So yeah, I replied her 2 hours later. She just had her brunch by then, yet I still forced her to accompany me for my brunch.

At first she disagree, then I successfully convinced her to be my companion. I win HEHEH v^^

Wore my new red Converse shoes I bought last few days. :)

The shoelace is supposed to be white, but I changed it to black. Red and black looks better, no?

It matches with my watch! :D

We came here - Petaling Street aka Chi Cheong Kai!

It feels like we went back to our high school times where we used to come all the way here just for their famous taufufa and air mata kuching right after school.

We're reminiscing those memories together. :')

The famous taufufa right in the middle of Petaling Street :)

Yay! Loving taufufa (:

& the famous air mata kuching! :D

Next, went to the famous Soong Kee Beef Noodles around Petaling Street.

Although I don't really eat beef, but this taste good. :D

Back at Evelyn's crib, there's this cat outside her place that doesn't wanna leave.

And I stayed behind for a while to fool around, heee.

I likey this pichaaa! :D

Then at night, went

Then, went to Alyna's place. Been too long since I've seen that woman!

Haven't been talking to her since I don't know when, and this time, I had a good catch up with her. Talked about attitudes, life, growing up, and everything. :)

Went to Connaught [Hong Lok] pasar malam with her.

& this is the best picture of us taken that day. LOL.

Been a great time. :)

Then, Seet, Lisa, Jin and I randomly went up to Genting to take a fresher breathe of the cool air.

It was really a last minute decision. Yeap, we're that random.

We wanted to check whether if there is any Transformers 3 movie at First World.

Yet it's all fully booked, even at ungodly hour. -___-

Attention on Jin's bag and slippers OHMYGAAAWD -___-

Been a long day!

2011-06-28T23:42:00.000+08:00

Last Saturday, Seet, Tan and Huey went for their dancing class just around my place near Korean Village.

So I paid them a visit and snap pictures of them dancing. I actually recorded a video too and it's on facebook! Hahaha, feel free to watch it! :)

After that, went to meet up with the gang at Valerie's place.

It was a simultaneous without planned dinner yet most of us miraculously showed up. :)

Waited for the others to arrive and off to Solaris for our dinner and drinking session.

In fact, it was our first time for the gang to drink at a bar.

Not everyone is interested in alcohol plus most of us drive, thus not all of us had alcohol.

We took this advantage to update our stuffs to each other and it went pretty good.

Jean brought her boyfie whilst Han brought his '好朋友' along too.

Vk, Wilson and I went to Kepong all the way to pick up Sam from her grandma's place.

Everyone misses her. :)

Super funny names of shots! LOL. We tried 'Blow Job'!

Jean, Val and Melody

Carlsberg!

Han and his 好朋友 LOL

Jean and her boyfie, Jia Wei

M gang yo!

Sammie

4 of us talking about our blow jobs, lol.

All in!

Attention on mine and Vk's faces. LOL!

& the group picture.

Was kinda drunk. But Vk was worst. He even puked, lousy! XD

Went back to Val's place at around 1-ish and rested for a while before continue driving.

Met Seet, Tan, Lisa , Yap and Gan for second round at Rampai.

Surprisingly I'm still able to drive after all the drinking.

What a night.

2011-06-28T23:14:00.001+08:00

Last Friday, I met up with Sam and Xinying in the morning for brunch.

Yes, Sam's back for her summer holidays as well and it lasts for 2 months. Lucky her!

Had a great catch up with her. :)

Went to Pao Xiang Bak Kut Teh @ Pavilion.

Typical Malaysian food specially for us people who just came back from studies abroad. :)

Pao Xiang is really not bad. Plus it's indoor air-conditioned.

As for the night, went to Sunway Giza with the Koon sisters for dinner.

At first, we planned to go to Kepong for Kaka Bak Kut Teh, but we changed our plans last minutely.

Since I nor Elsie haven't been to Sunway Giza before, Evelyn decided to drive us there. :)

Sunway Giza isn't really big to my amaze, since it's only a bistro venue.

It's a good hang out place tho with those restaurants and bars opened till late at night.

Went for Full House.

My nasi lemak!

Elsie's spaghetti!

Evelyn's chicken chop!

Wanted to join the SSU gang for their drinking session at Beer Factory just opposite Full House.

But something came up, and it ruined my mood. So yeah, go home.

2011-06-27T22:50:00.001+08:00

Once upon a time.. I believe in fairy tales.

Once upon a time.. I believe in destiny.

Once upon a time.. I believe in fate.

This is all bullshit.

Truth is, I've fell deeply. The hole seems so dark that I couldn't find my own way out. Struggling and wondering where's the light which brightens up the path in front of me. The light gets dimmer day by day and today, it eventually went off. It went off; leaving me there alone.

Again and again, I've been suffering from the same old situation. But this time, it's the worst I've got myself into. I tried so hard.. I tried very very hard; but truth is fate brings us nowhere. You win. I give up. I.. give up.

哭完了就擦掉眼泪继续走下去. 不要千万不要再往后退了, 我真的不想再受到伤害.

这次..对我来说.. 真的已经够了.

Thank you very much for all the pain you've brought me. Thank you. Nevertheless, I shall hope the best for you.

2011-06-24T23:56:00.007+08:00

“我没有你想象中那么坚强，我只是擅长用微笑去伪装.”

Shut the fuck up and stay strong.

:'(

2011-06-23T23:00:00.003+08:00

So.. I've been back home for a few days already.

The good thing is that I received positive comments from those who've seen me these few days.

"Candy, you sui liao horrr!"
Sui means pretty in Hokkien *ahem* :)

And other compliments friends give, thanks people.
I just wanna let you guys know that it's not because anyone torture me in Melbourne or anything that cause this change, it's just myself, probably I need a full turnover for myself.
Well, I don't even know it's a good thing or a bad thing, cause you never wanna know what is the actual reason that gives me the motive to change.

Things were pretty much the same back home.
It's always great to be home after a whole lot of hell suffered after studying for few months.

But.. yeah, we couldn't expect the best out of everything eh?
Things just wouldn't go as planned, that's why people ought to expect the worst.
I ought to understand this point and to know how to handle things by my own since everyone around me is changing so fast that I have to change myself to keep up with the pace.
No more being the o'Candy anymore. No more. It's over.
Too much thoughts lingering in my mind.. & it's time for me to be on my feet and start handling things alone without being pampered and relied on whom I used to rely on.
Cause.. you're a grown-up child now. You're on your own.

Sometimes, if I were to choose again, I'd probably make a different decision.
& this will definitely mark a significant change in my life.

I'll be just fine.
Exactly one more month to end my holiday. I shall enjoy. :)

2011-06-20T23:42:00.001+08:00

Went to Jogoya @ Starhill today.

There was this time that Jogoya was promoting its buffet at Facebook. It's really simple to get their vouchers and we can enjoy the buy-one-free-one-buffet-dinner with a low price. :)

Since I haven't tried Jogoya before, so I decided to promote it to my friends.

& finally, these were the people who accompanied me for the buffet; Evelyn, ShuMin, EeQuin, Lily and JooVee. :)

Before we headed for the dinner, Evelyn & I went to trim our hair. I just had my fringe trimmed, and it only costs me 4 bucks.

Then we went to Lot 10 to get a new pair of Birkenstock. :)

Always wanted to have one of those since the beginning of the year.

Got the white one, because the red one looks ugly on me, lol.
Btw it costs RM236.

My sexy back :)

ShuMin!

MPP = EeQuin!

JooVee!

Lily!

The sayang (:

Then we walked to Pavilion just to have Snowflake.
Yeap, Snowflake right after a dinner buffet. Our appetite damn big right. -__-

Sephora - Every girl's 天堂! LOL XD

#Take 1

#Take 2 LOL!

& a bowl of bestseller Snowflake ends our very tiring day.
Jogoya's food isn't really nice, but the friends are awesome; quote EeQuin. :)

2011-06-20T23:31:00.002+08:00

On a fine Sunday morning, I went for breakfast at Ding Tai Fung @ Pavilion for breakfast with the family.

And on the same day, it was Matthew's birthday! So after breakfast we went around shopping to get him his ULTRAMAN. LOL.

And we cousins did a little shopping around. Not really a little HAHAHA. Quite a lot of shopping, but all we bought was facial stuff and cosmetics yet we spent quite a lot. OH GOSH. HAHAHAHA!

Luckily my mom didn't nag me :P

Pavilion :)

CHATIME!

Pearl Milk Tea :)

The amount of stuff I bought LOL.

Happy 5th Birthday Mat Mat! :D

Later at night, went to meet up the Koon sisters for a while and they accompanied me to get my dinner.

The thing is that they already had their dinner yet they just accompanied me.

So sweet of them right?

Although it's just merely an hour of meet-up, I'm already touched. Thanks lovelies! :')

My dinner = Ramly burger!! :D

Although it's not the usual Ramly burger I had behind Evelyn's place, it's still that delicious especially when I hunger for Ramly burger so much and my tummy's croaking so badly that night. :P

The sayang :)

The wifeyy :)

Evelyn wrote this :)

After that, went to meet up with the SSU gang for a chill-out session.

Most of them were supposed to study overnight cause they had exams the next day, but because they wanted to see me they're willing to come out. Aww. So nice right. :')

We really didn't know where to go cause it was a random and last minute outing.

At last we chose to go to city. A chill-out cafe, Malones @ Pavilion.

& that pretty sums up my Sunday. :)

2011-06-18T23:55:00.000+08:00

So I'm back home now. :)

Reached KLIA at around 0615. After collecting my luggage and all, I thought of taking the taxi home before realizing that my parents stood right at the pick-up gate. How sweet. :)

I straight away jumped on my bed and have a good nap the moment I reached home.

How much I miss my big and comfy big :')

After that, went to have brunch with the sayang, Evelyn Koon.

The first friend I'd always meet up with after coming back from Melbourne is always her. Be proud, missy! :D

My facial condition wasn't really that good, with the super dry skin and lips like Angelina Jolie, therefore no pictures taken for the whole day. :)

Had a short talk with the best friend. How I miss talking to her, how I miss hanging out with her and everything that made me feel reminiscence of our friendship. :')

After lunch she brought me to Fahrenheit 88 to take a look of the Casio shop since she knew that I wanted to get a Baby G watch.

And yes, I did got it instantly. Although it wasn't the watch that I wanted all along [because it's kinda small], I got myself the G-shock watch instead.

Isn't it nice? :D Red is the in-thing now wooohoooooo! :D

I got it for RM329, and I personally think it's cheap cause I expected 500 bucks and above.

& I actually wanted to get another white one but Evelyn stopped me.

Hahahaha. Guess I shouldn't be that greedy and being such a spendthrift after all. :)

Went for dinner with the family at night at Six Happiness Restaurant, Ampang Waterfront in conjunction with Father's Day.

So yeah, that pretty ends my day. :)

2011-06-17T23:40:00.000+08:00

Today is the day, where I'm going to hitch the next plane back home to the one&only place I called home. :)

The day had finally arrived. It had been long anticipated by me yo.

Right before boarding the plane, a few of us had dinner together - Steamboat @ Little Lamb, Russell Street.

It was actually a birthday dinner for Ho Jan Hao since his birthday falls ont he 18th of June. But I wouldn't be around so yeah, just for me, the dinner is scheduled earlier, heheh. :)

Well, my appetite wasn't really good, so I didn't practically eat. & did I mention it was a steamboat buffet?

Sigh, my 25 bucks gone just like that when I was supposed to have a hell whole of a feast!

At home.

The girls.

Our inside joke with the lamb! HAHAHA

Happy 20th Birthday Ho Jan Hao!

tsktskyouaresooldalready! XD

Hope you'd like your present and be happy in your everyday's life.

& also hope God would bless you in your future undertakings and everything you do!

Thanks for being a great friend and thanks for letting me zhat everytime I see you HAHAHAH! :D

After steamboat, went straight back home to get myself well-prepared for my midnight flight.

A few of them followed me back too. Yeah, they wanted to send me off to the bus station.

Awwhh, I know so sweet right! :)

@ Ground floor of Liberty Tower. :)

Thanks guys! :)

TELL THE WORLD I'M COMING HOME!

#nowplaying Coming Home - Diddy Dirty Money :D

2011-06-15T21:10:00.003+08:00

Marketing was this afternoon.

It was okay. I could answer the main essay question and the other short essay question.

But the rest.. not so, but I think should be alright.

I didn't really pay attention to my Marketing, and I blame myself for that, but I really need the marks. :(

I can't bear to screw it up. :(

Oh by the way, Commercial Law paper was last Friday.

I managed to finish up the whole paper and I think people said you can guarantee a pass once you were able to finish up the whole paper.
Guess what, the passing rate for Monash students to pass Commercial Law is only 60%!
Imagine if we fail the subject, we have to pay an additional AUD3k just to retake.
How much is it if it's converted into RM? You do the math.

Well, I not only want a pass, I need to get at least a credit, or perhaps a distinction for it.

Ughh, I seriously hate being paranoid over my results.

Can't imagine how will it be when the results is out in less than a month's time..

All the what ifs I've been thinking throughout these few nights, is driving me nuts!

But on the brighter note, EXAMS ARE FINALLY OVER FOR ME!!

HELL YEAH!

The one month holiday I've been anticipating all along.. is FINALLY HERE!

The first thing I'm gonna do is to sleep now to pay off my sleeping debt last night.

Like duhh, I stayed up till 6am this morning just for my marketing paper!

Now I'm so freaking tired I need at least 12 hours of sleep. :)

Wait for me people for Candy is gonna be home soon! :)

I can finally have my break, leave this place and to relax physically. & emotionally.

2011-06-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

Quote of the day;

"People say you don't know what you've got till it's gone. Truth is, you knew what you had, you just thought you'd never lose it."

Reflects on how people take granted on people, pfft.

The more someone pushes you away, the more he/she needs you.

Can't agree more with this fact.

2011-06-12T00:52:00.026+08:00

Some random picture with Inn in some random street after some random dinner. :)

"Once upon a time, there were two friends............and things have changed."

I wonder how will this story goes on. Probably.. it had already ended.

I hope I know what am I doing. :)

I'll get over it, I promise.

2011-06-09T16:13:00.001+08:00

I'm so in love with Baby G watches recently.

And I don't even know why. The interest just struck me without me knowing it. :D

Baby G watches are damn cool, with its striking colours and stylish pattern!

Anyone get me one?!

mybirthdayiscoming*hinthint*. XD

Casio Women Watches : Casual Wear Summer Sunshine (Sept 2009 Model) Casio Watch with High-Impact Vivid Colors Series #BG-5601-2
Price : AUD$129.99

This colour is damn chio!!

But I guess it's kinda hard to match with clothes eh?

Casio Women Watches : 2009 Limited Edition World Time #BG-5601-SW-7

Price : AUD$249.99

This one nice!! But the price is even nicer .___.

Casio Women's Watches : (Aug 2008 Model) Candy-like Color Shock Resistant #BG-5601-1

Price : AUD$199.99

Loving this the most!! Plus, the description is Candy-like!

MUAHAHAHHAA.

I wonder if KL sells any cheaper? :(
I wanna get two!!

Gahh, time to save money again and again and again. :(

Anyone get me one??? HEHEHHEE :)

2011-06-08T23:30:00.048+08:00

Accounting&Financial paper was on Monday.

It was okay I guess. Just kinda screwed up the theory part.

Well, I tried my best, I believe I wouldn't flunk it.. I think. I pretty sure I won't. :)

Microeconomics paper was on the next day.

I screwed up my mood on that day while sitting for that paper..practically, someone screwed my mood.

But I can blame no one, it wasn't anyone's fault but mine.

So if I were to flunk this paper, all I can blame is myself, not you.

I know I'm not up to the level of responsibility.

I know I'm not synchronized with my age.

I know in your eyes, I'm always that useless.

BUT hello! Don't you know that I'm changing? Things you never knew, issues you never asked and sincerity you never mattered in your life about me. Oh I'm sorry, I know that you lead your own life now, and I'm on my own.

I finally know what kind of a person I am to you, in your eyes.

Come to think of it after I chilled down, I am really disappointed with myself. And thank you for pointing out the fact that I'm such a useless person.

I wonder.. if anyone was proud of me before. Anyone?

Sometimes, I really want to know how useless I am in your eyes.

I don't dare to imagine, cause all along, I knew that I wasn't worth it.

I just feel like leaving this place.

2011-06-05T15:23:00.005+08:00

Alright, I shall spend a little time blogging and ranting because I feel like to. Hahaha.

These days have been hectic, yes, horrendously-ridiculously-super-duper-hectic.

Okay, maybe not that much. Just kinda exaggerate my feelings here hehe. :)

But this doesn't leave out the fact that I'm really stressed out. Both emotionally and physically.

I've been striving so hard for my exams which is... TOMORROW, lol.

You guys don't know how hard I've tried these few weeks to an extent that I've became an absurd lifeless teenager. No joke.
I just don't wanna disappoint anyone anymore including myself.

And I seriously am anticipating my long one-month break back home.

Home as in my one&only place I called home.

I really need to have a break, of course, a break from studies, assignments, universities and all... & also a time-out from all those unnecessary stuff that lingers in my mind for like God knows how long!

It's time for me to flush them all out and stand back up on my feet, FIRMLY.

Well, I know, all I need is time. And I deeply believe, time will be my one&only miraculous cure.

Speaking about time..

I coincidently found a long lost friend's facebook profile, browsing through her photos and all,

I came to a conclusion that time really changed a person thoroughly, in terms of appearance, attitude & all.

The o' tiny little girl, probably 10 years ago, had grown up into a optimistic bright young lady now. :)

I'm glad that you still remembered me, cause the moment I browsed through your photos, flashback starts to hit me. Those days when we were those innocent little girls during primary school and we used to be good friends back then. Ahhh, the feeling of reminiscence is always good and warm. :')

I know you wouldn't see this but I sincerely hope all is well for you and your family, Victoria. :)

Okay, it's time for me to hit the books again.
Semester One exams officially starts tomorrow. I guess everyone will be super nervous by now.
Well, just do your best and God will do the rest. That's what I've been telling myself. :)

No pictures for today, you wouldn't wanna see how zombified I am now. :P

Till then!

2011-06-04T02:28:00.001+08:00

现在是凌晨四点半
我快要崩溃

2011-06-02T23:13:00.002+08:00

This is the saddest scene ever in the drama 点解阿Sir系阿Sir

I.. cried. :'(

在你生命中最重要的人往往会是hurt你最深的人
:(

2011-06-02T15:19:00.002+08:00

Okay I'm gonna give myself a break just to blog this drama;

点解阿Sir系阿Sir - Yes Sir Sorry Sir.

I don't know why I'm kinda emotional watching this drama.

Especially when it's about the love triangle between 陈豪，钟嘉欣 & 杨怡.

To whom who haven't watch this drama, it's best if you stop reading this blogpost.

You might blame me for revealing some of the storyline, but I have the urge to do so. Hahahahaha :)

Cause I kinda have myself involved in this drama, I don't even know why LOL!

Moses Chan (陈豪) - Lo Sir

Linda Chung (钟嘉欣) - Ms Koo

Tavia Yeung (杨怡) - Ms Ho

Ron Ng (吴卓羲) - Ching Sir

I just don't like the fact that someone misused, or sort of, take advantage of the other person's feelings just to aim for your own goal.

Don't you know it's really hurtful to girls?

Especially to someone who isn't really easy to accept relationships, yet she chose you.

It makes me hate Moses Chan in this drama, RAAAAWRRR.

Hahahahaha, I admit, I'm really a good fan of 钟嘉欣 :D And also 杨怡.

I'm just being really subjective in this drama. HEHEHE.

Okay, shall not say any further, but it's a drama worth watching. :)

Ms Koo = Ms Cool.

外表冷酷，里面不知多软

Loving her style :)

And I love this two scenes the most. :)

No matter how cool a girl is, she will also have her 'deh' time. :D

& this is really.............sweet.

2011-05-31T20:42:00.001+08:00

总觉得现在的我缺乏了些东西
以前的我到底去了哪里 :(

2011-05-28T21:40:00.003+08:00

此次此刻，我超想大声地喊

I COULDN'T STAND IT ANYMOREEEEEEEE!!!!!

But then, 我冷静了下来

深呼吸

然后对自己说 ;

我不会那么容易放弃!

哭过了, 发泄完了, 就得振作起来继续走下去!

因为我知道

"希望在明天!"

As the old saying: Yesterday becomes today's history, tomorrow becomes today's mystery.
All I can do is continue believing, that tomorrow will always be a better day for me.

Give me more time and I'll get through this; beautifully.

2011-05-26T21:08:00.001+08:00

:)

有时候美好的回忆往往会变成最舍不得以及最想忘记的回忆

2011-05-25T22:34:00.001+08:00

Just got back from Chadstone VIP night.
Yes, that means, I'm broke, broke, and broke! :(
But I did shop a little here and there. I guess I shopped more for people than myself?

3 SuperDry shirts for the Koon sisters;
1 SuperDry shirt for the cousin;
2 Lacoste shirts for the mom and kai ma.

Altogether costs me more than AUD200 already!
HAHAHAHA. Oh wells, sales ma, what to do, this is what girls do best. :))

The number of SuperDry shirts I bought, lol.
There's another jumper too :))

And I'm really tired now.
Went shopping when exams is just around the corner and I haven't been touching any books the whole day.
Gah, still have to do my tutorials for tomorrow. :(

Seriously hope that all this studying havoc can get over and done with asap.
I need my long break. :(

Haven't been camwhoring for quite some time now. Hehehee :D

HAIH I SO STRESS :((

我会加油的

2011-05-23T22:31:00.001+08:00

Behind my smile is a story that you will never understand.

:)

becausethereisalwayssomethingleftunsaid.

2011-05-21T21:51:00.000+08:00

The only reason why people hold on to memories so tight is because;
memories are the only things that don't change when everything else does.

顺其自然 (:

2011-05-20T23:33:00.002+08:00

520; such a beautiful date we have today.
What makes it more significant is that today is one meaningful day carved in my parents' hearts.

Without you, I wouldn't be breathing.
You brought me into this world and gave me an identity with flesh and blood.
You never gave up on me whatever I do.
You showered me with comfort, satisfaction and love being your daughter throughout these 18 years.

What can I say further?
Thank you.

Happy 21st Anniversary mom&dad !!

I don't ask for anything, I just hope..
Happiness will follow you wherever you go (:

On this special 520 day, I'm not saying I love you to anyone,
but you mummy&papa.